G’day folks it’s me again. Figured I would share a quick update although not much has really happened. I was able to avoid my parents last night and tonight, and I think I may even be able to do it again tomorrow assuming all goes well. It’s nice having this opportunity to be away from them for a little bit. The peace is definitely good for all of us at this point.
That girl that I was supposed to go on a date with has still been messaging me. There has been zero mention of it not happening or anything like that. I was really thinking she wasn’t into me and I still sort of think that way, but what I don’t understand is that she’s texting me every morning first, and today when she sent me “have a great day” she put a blowing kiss face emoji, to me that feels like a flirty thing or something, but then again it could be something totally innocent that she does. To be fair I have sent that emoji jokingly to a lot of people. No real updates with her but we continue to talk regularly, she sends me pictures on her way to work everyday, and she looks beautiful. I’m hoping something more will come of this relationship yet but who knows.
The ball is slowly rolling forward with my separation agreement, which is essentially my golden ticket to starting my life again. I’m excited to finally have that done and over with. I think my plan is once I have that finalized and it’s good to go, I want to sell my car because it’s so expensive and get an apartment. I can’t afford both a car and an apartment, so an apartment it is. It’ll be a huge change for me because I’ve had a car for the last eight going on nine years. I think it’s a move right now that would be good for me and help me gain some independence back. Plus there’s something about “hey baby come over to my moms house” that just isn’t appealing.
I feel bad there isn’t really more to talk about, today was alright. Coming off the heels of the weekend was a little intense and I’m already done with this week, but it wasn’t bad. I’ve got two feet and a heartbeat for now so that’s all I can really be excited about I guess. I guess one thing is despite the goings on of this weekend, I was able to not have a drink what so ever even thought I wanted to. This Saturday coming will be my four week mark. I’m really happy with that.
As I was writing that last paragraph I thought of this actually. I was hanging out with a friend of mine tonight, the one that offered me a beer. He had mentioned how he figured what was up and when I refused the beer and he seems very supportive and understanding of my decision to try and quit. I’m glad that he is as supportive as he is with it, I guess even he himself poured a beer out instead of drinking it not to long ago. Who knows, maybe we’ll both end up sober one day. It’s nice knowing I do have people who care about me and I know I do, I just forget that sometimes and I don’t know why.
Another day down and a new one tomorrow. I suppose all we can do is hope for the best, and expect the worst.
I hope everybody had a great weekend, filled with funny stories and silly memories. Till we chat again folks.
